Past Relation Rant Pt. I

1:03AM...Tuesday morning...

Well, came to think about it...me and my X have been married for 7 years now (and separated for the 3 last of those)...the correct date being October the 13:th...and we got married on a...yeah...Friday...dressed in black...what else...?

We haven't filed for divorce...yet...well, one of the points being that I'm in Sweden nowadays and she lives in the states...and I haven't been over there since I moved out, summer of -05...and, so, the next time I have my vacation anywhere near those locations again, we'll make sure to finalize the split and make it more official than it already is...(that didn't sound anything near confusing at all, didn't it?)...

One of the best things with all this dramarama, is that me and my X are still very good friends and plan to hang out in the future...as friends of cuz, duh...whether she comes over here or I go over there...

Oh, and we originally met online over the internet...in a chat...back in -97...so...that's 10 years this year...(and a few months, I recall chatting with her around May/June:ish 97 the first time or so)...

Anyways...I had 4 years over in the states...it started out good, but...as time went by, I felt that some things weren't quite right...and, 2 weeks before Thanksgiving (of -04), I got the news...and my reply was immidiate: "Well, I'm moving back to Sweden then"...and, that was that...7 months later I was back home...to start all over...again...for the second (third?) time around...

...and, I have exactly ZERO kids to support from that ride...but, I gained 3 stepdaughters out of this relationship, that I think of every now and then and how they've grown up from bratty teenagers (hehe) and become young women, ready to take over the world, for the last few years...that I missed out on...unfortunately...

OK, I dunno how come I'm writing all this right now...but, I guess it's the anniversary that just passed...and that just makes my mind go into retro-activity, thinking about the times that was...

...and I need to write it down at some point as well...cuz it's still "haunting" my mind...you know when you're all clogged up with stuff you should be done with ages ago...but it's still there...all the time...so...this is just a start...maybe there's more about this later...maybe not...it's still inda personal...or...well...me and X needs to have a really good eye-for-an-eye chat one of these days in the near future and talk out about what went wrong and so on...especially now that we have had time to think about the past situation for ourselves and maybe have our own solutions to the problem that never really was...but still became...(if that makes any sense)...

Well, I guess this blogrant became more personal than intended at first...
Open up the floodgates, huh...?

If nothing else...there's a lil sneak peek in to my past life, not much, but still...

Laters